I kno, I kno my site has been dead for months and there were times when I really wanted to get back into Blogging, but the honest truth is I just couldn't find the energy to do it. I tried just post pix and leaving titles as captions but even that seemed to tiresome.
But I think Im readier now, the past week ive been so hungry for change, and I so desiring to making it work, being a graphic designer that is, that I feel like putting it all down. I need to vent, more than anything, I need to find a place that can be mine, hahahaha, mayb its becos my tamagotchi died and it opened up my schedule.
Anyway, I bak, or trying to come bak, if for no-one else but myself reading my own words I will be happy. I need a routine more than anything. a sense of stability, a new feeling that I can put work in something and get rewarded.
Or maybe its becos I wrote my 1st article for Design Hub 2dai! I was soo pleased with myself. I had little sleep, but 2 coffees and the andrenalin of it all just kept me going. It took me 3 hours to write, it was about a digital storytelling project called True Design and it will run in conjunction with Sydney Design 07.
I hadnt written anything for yonks now, and it felt good. It felt like sculpturing clay, it push me to focus, and to bring out me creative side again, but in words. I missed that part of me. I was tired, didnt bring my classes so I was very paranoid that I was reading everything correctly, and making sure I understood it all.
I put all my enery into those 3 hours, it needed to to wirte, it needed to be special. I did the best I can, cos I needed to make a good 1st impression as it was first real formal piece. And I must say it was tight. I kept reminding my self about the article's purpose, about creating flow between topics, about link paragraphs, about be clear and explaining the topic as if the readers had never heard of True Design b4. It helped that I did my thesis on Web 2.0 becos it helpd me understand the power of audiences in the new medium of Interactive design.
I put so much of my energry in this article that I was completely drained of all energy. my head, eyes, back all ached. I must have been suppressiing the pain until I knew it was safe to hurt, becos I was in survival mode. It had to get done well, no matter what. and when it was finally done, the flood gate opend and I really felt like I wanted to collapse.
It was a happy pain tho. I think thats why Im writing in the blog now. I hav a passion for writing again. of placing words together so that they express my feelings. I just want to write and write and get better and better, and find my own style and make it all work out. I want to make it work out more than ever now, so design world, u better fricking watch out!!! HAHAHAHA
I hope the editor liked it, I now it could be bettr and she'll change some things, but it pretty HOT for some1 who hasn't been wrting for a while. Even if she's not impressed it wont lessen my feeling of accomplishment. I proud of myself good result or not so good. I work hard at my passion and the outcome, for me, was there, article finished, blinking on the screen. I hope it gets submitted onto the DesignHub site, that would so be Tops!!!
This is the start of something special, I can feel it :-)
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