Reassured...is the final Word....on a thesis, that was so Obscurd

A few days ago, I found out I passed! I finished my course!!! I wanted to tell you soonr, but been to busy and later is always bettr than never.

I was so scared I'd fail, that I didnt want to make an entry in my blog until I new for sure that I passed, until I got my confidence back, until I got the reassurance that only a past verdict can give me, to authenticate me as being legit. Stupid I kno, but thats how I felt.

You should hav seen me, everyday I woke up and the first then I did was log into platform web to see if my 'still pending' notice change to a mark. I had to wait for over a month and a half later that all the other honours students for my mark to come out, since I got a extension, and there was no definite date wen my mark was gunna come out, since my thesis had to be reviewed by an external and an internal marker and since the staff went on holidays, no one was really sure wen they would get on with it. I just had to wait, hope, and wonder each day that today would be the lucky day.

When the fateful day my mark was sent on platform web I thought that I was dreaming, it all felt so surreal becos for over a month I got used to seeing a 'still pending' notice, and now, NOW there was a mark, I was beyond happy, I was beyond belief! I printed out the page in case the Uni was going to ring up and say, 'sorry, we mistaked ur mark for someone else, Oops! Im sorry u faild'. But, just recenntly, I also got a confirmation that I am graduating in April, the dream of mine...IS REAL!!!

Now that the whole drama of my honour's year is over, I want to develop this blog into a diary of my journey in filling my own shoes as a designer. My influences, my goals, my set backs, my realizations. All of the messy stuff. This blog will feel more organic, more personal, I don't even know how things are going to pan out?! I'm will slowly upload the things Ive been up, while I was 'away' and as I carry one, things have been busy for me tho, and blogging as taken a back seat to just living up life. Please b patient with me as I find my momentum again.

I'm getting there.

Chase.